For whatever reason, I find it harder and harder to control my temper, my emotions, my thoughts, my words. It’s like my filter died a year and a half ago and now it still tries to work but fails constantly.
I don’t even know. All I know is I’m tired of getting myself into problems that are my fault and then crying all the time. (Been doing that a lot lately too, but in more of a cleansing, releasing emotions kind of way. Not a heart broken kind of way) I’m in need of therapy. I don’t want to tell that to my boyfriend, he’d deny it for me. But sometimes… I really miss my counselor. She always knew what to say, she had me on a schedule, and on a constant as possible journaling session to get feelings out. I really need that again. Maybe I’ll get some in college. God knows I need it sometimes.